Warning: Random reminiscing ahead ;)…
Until the time I when I was in college, and probably even the days after I joined work and the early days of my marriage, I would call myself as on the diffident and even naïve side. A hesitation to ask questions even to get information, an inability to say no to anything… and so many other such things were a part of my personality. So much so, that I never wanted to go shopping on my own or anywhere on my own I guess. I’m sure hubby remembers those days when he was really busy with work (that hasn’t changed ;)), and I would grumble about not going “anywhere” as he wasn’t around.
I can't put my finger on when this started to change, or even why. May have been with being forced to go on my own to begin with, but so many things along the journey of life have changed the person I am now, especially in this regard. Shopping is nearly always alone, occasionally with like-minded friends, but hardly ever with family, unless it’s a weekend outing as such. I learnt early on that taking the kids along to a place like Shoppers Stop (the closest option to where I stay) is asking for trouble, as I would lose track of them in the high aisles! Not to mention when they enter the phase of “asking for things” ;) !
The thought really hit me today, as I was sitting and having breakfast alone at a restaurant, as I had missed eating when I rushed out of home to go drop the kids somewhere. I did not even need my 3G to entertain me as I sat there, just the food and the scenes through the window were good enough J. It seems I am really at an age and phase of being at peace with myself… Felt good!