Warning: Random reminiscing ahead ;)…
Until the time I when I was in college, and probably even
the days after I joined work and the early days of my marriage, I would call
myself as on the diffident and even naïve side.
A hesitation to ask questions even to get information, an inability to
say no to anything… and so many other such things were a part of my
personality. So much so, that I never wanted to go shopping on my own or
anywhere on my own I guess. I’m sure hubby remembers those days when he was
really busy with work (that hasn’t changed ;)), and I would grumble about not
going “anywhere” as he wasn’t around.
I can't put my finger on when this started to change, or
even why. May have been with being forced to go on my own to begin with, but so
many things along the journey of life have changed the person I am now,
especially in this regard. Shopping is nearly always alone, occasionally with
like-minded friends, but hardly ever with family, unless it’s a weekend outing
as such. I learnt early on that taking the kids along to a place like Shoppers
Stop (the closest option to where I stay) is asking for trouble, as I would
lose track of them in the high aisles! Not to mention when they enter the phase
of “asking for things” ;) !
The thought really hit me today, as I was sitting and having
breakfast alone at a restaurant, as I had missed eating when I rushed out of home to
go drop the kids somewhere. I did not even need my 3G to entertain me as I sat
there, just the food and the scenes through the window were good enough J. It seems I am really
at an age and phase of being at peace with myself… Felt good!
nice reading through this...would like to read more..how did the change come and ur initial reaction :))
ReplyDeleteThanks Pushpa... will think about that and write another one if it merits it :). I think in a nutshell though it's just a sense of confidence that comes with knowing who you are (how corny!).
DeleteI can say almost the same about me, although I'm yet to go alone for a meal as R is always with me but I'm sure I can do that today. I can't imagine myself like this some years back. And, I'm happy about the change too :-)
ReplyDeleteThanks Uma.. it's good to know somebody who shares the same feeling :).
Deletelovely post aparna. Wish you a lot more moments like this :)
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Nanda :)
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Hey I want more of these Aparna. Isn't it very liberating to be able to enjoy your own company?
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely Tulika :).. I'm glad to have reached this stage and it's definitely here to stay!
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